I've always had a firm belief that even though I wasn't one of the golden people in life, I was a shimmering silver star in my own right. I shone with a determined glow, a glow that intelligence and ambition recognised.
These days however, I feel as if the glow is getting steadily snuffed. I was a child and a teenager with much potential, I coasted along on it and grew in complacency. Now however at the brink of adulthood I'm starting to realise that potential can only take me thus far and instead substance has to make itself known. People no longer look at me and search for what can be, instead they expect to see what should already be there.
The past few jobs or endeavors that I've undertaken have left me feeling short at best. I don't seem to possess the substance to succeed as an adult. Perhaps I have to start over, learning my limits and trying not to be impeded by them. Maybe I've finally learnt humility. Either or, its a hard lesson to stomach.
These days however, I feel as if the glow is getting steadily snuffed. I was a child and a teenager with much potential, I coasted along on it and grew in complacency. Now however at the brink of adulthood I'm starting to realise that potential can only take me thus far and instead substance has to make itself known. People no longer look at me and search for what can be, instead they expect to see what should already be there.
The past few jobs or endeavors that I've undertaken have left me feeling short at best. I don't seem to possess the substance to succeed as an adult. Perhaps I have to start over, learning my limits and trying not to be impeded by them. Maybe I've finally learnt humility. Either or, its a hard lesson to stomach.
1 comment:
i like the 'silver shimmering' part.
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